This is all about communication (or lack thereof) and the growing frustration that comes from having to read between the lines. It is the most raw and revealing song on the album and (ironically) proved to be the most challenging to get over the finish line. The song went through several iterations and the final version has elements from four separate sessions. Eventually I stumbled on a combination of elements that truly supported the immediacy underpinning the songs sentiment.
lyrics
It's on loop inside my brain
Every possibility
Now I'm seeing a psychologist
But I still get no relief
Out here
Freezing
Calling out to the seasons
Look me in the eye
Give it to me straight
Something keeps me hanging on
To this shadow of a man
Thought I knew what it meant to be strong
Thought I held it in my hands
Out here
Freezing
Calling out to the seasons
Look me in the eye
Give it to me straight
I need to know the truth
Even if It kills me
There's a look on your face
An idiot could read
Look me in the eye
Give it to me straight
credits
credits
from Where Am I Now?,
released March 12, 2021
Written - Mat Cammarano & Bradley Green
Recorded & Produced - Mat Cammarano
Additional Recording - Dan Carroll & Ryan Brennan
Performed - Mat Cammarano, James Shehan & Ryan Brennan
Mixed - Andy Lawson
Mastered - William Bowden
Artwork - Shane Beam
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