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Where Am I Now?

by Camarano

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1.
Ghosts are getting louder Singing a song Strangely familiar I've heard this one Get out the way to Get it out Get out the way Let it out Sometimes you win Sometimes you lose Fall asleep at the wheel Of a life you choose Am I doing my best or trying too hard? Is it all in vain, all this pain? Looking for that peace of mind Catch glimpses of it from time to time Laughing with you or singing a song It's impossible to hold Long days long nights Dreaming of you my eyes wide Can't separate sleep from wake Where am I now?
2.
It's on loop inside my brain Every possibility Now I'm seeing a psychologist But I still get no relief Out here Freezing Calling out to the seasons Look me in the eye Give it to me straight Something keeps me hanging on To this shadow of a man Thought I knew what it meant to be strong Thought I held it in my hands Out here Freezing Calling out to the seasons Look me in the eye Give it to me straight I need to know the truth Even if It kills me There's a look on your face An idiot could read Look me in the eye Give it to me straight credits
3.
I am always rushing Rushing off to something Something that ain't this Speeding down the southbound Looking for a comedown Coffee and tv I wish I was here Wish I was here I go out I come home Think about getting stoned Drugs rarely work Driving through the backstreets Slowly finding my feet In this suburban town I wish I was here Wish I was here Oh shit I think I am a narcissist
4.
Holiday Inn 02:46
Four in the morning You are calling Meet at the Holiday Inn Leave them there sleeping Sound in their bedrooms Steal away into the night This thing is dangerous Nothing can save us now Forget how it started Know how it ends Try to keep those thoughts out of my head It is you that I have wanted You that I need Haven't felt alive in years This thing is dangerous Nothing can save us now This thing is dangerous Time to burn it down Sharing a single bed Smoke the last cigarette I could die In your arms Maybe in another life (yeah maybe in another life) Four in the morning You are calling Meet at the Holiday Inn
5.
Bored 02:17
I am bored of myself Bored of my songs Bored of my face Bored of my job Bored at the party All the small talk Boredom Boredom Bored of the sights Bored of the sounds Bored every time You come around Bored when we kiss Bored when we fuck Boredom Boredom I scare myself half to death It's dark before dawn in my head Someday soon I will wake up without the weight Give me something to believe in Someone to rely on Give me something to believe in Someone to rely on
6.
I was weightless In mid air Kind of hoping for a plane crash to keep us here We were glowing Stare into the sun With it came the sudden realisation the day was done Did it cross your mind? Like it crosses mine I'm just being honest It's a terrible habit Did it cross your mind? I've been drifting In and out of dreams In this heat it's hard for me to tell fake from real Time flies by Each day is a lifetime We drive for hours Don't feel like hours Did it cross your mind? Like it crosses mine I'm just being honest It's a terrible habit Did it cross your mind? Read my name I'm a stranger Touch my face I'm a stranger Did it cross your mind?
7.
Try to keep it under wraps for now And hope that it’ll pass somehow It’s animal attraction Don’t you see My biggest fear is this If you ever game me a hint I’d throw it all away For You I am still a fool for you The brightest eyes in the room Breaking my back to look Can’t help myself Stop and stare After all these years We were made to fade Nothing lasts forever So they say I am still a fool for you You found someone I did too That don’t stop from thinking of you I am still a fool for you
8.
No Escaping 02:39
No escaping Who I am No escaping Good and bad No escape from What I’ve done Are you gonna love me, are you gonna save me From who I am No escaping You are what you are No escaping Bad habits die hard No escaping What I’ve become Are you gonna love me, are you gonna save me From who I am Can I change my ways Only if you want to Show me an escape Surrender to the great unknown
9.
I can be lucid I can be miles away Sitting pretty on a tightrope What will I be today? Control is an illusion What's next is anybody's guess Give me sweet surrender Never thought that far ahead Will I burn bright? Can I make it to the other side? Down in a well How deep, it's hard to tell Will I burn out? When you pick a life Of pleasure and of pain There's a fine fine line They are one and the same Will I burn bright? Can I make it to the other side? Down in a well How deep, it's hard to tell Will I burn bright? Or will I burn out?
10.
It came without warning A song on the radio It cut through the static Made me pull over You'll have to forgive me I am not usually This dramatic You caught me in a panic Since I can remember Strangely persistent Borderline OCD Possible manic I see a shadow A shadow of a man Kinda looks like me Kinda looks like my dad I could make friends But how do you keep them There's only a few I really let it in Shutter it off Under the surface Lie in the bath tub Sing with my eyes closed They say you gotta Serve somebody I lost myself in you I lost myself In you again Lost myself again

about

I made ‘Where I Am Now?’ in my spare bedroom during lockdown. It helped keep me focussed at a time I felt untethered from reality. Some songs were completed in a couple of hours while others went through several iterations. It seems to me that songs have their own timeline, some burst out fully formed, others need time to brew. I inevitably hit the ‘all is lost/this sounds like trash’ moment but my friends pulled me out.

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released March 12, 2021

Recorded & Produced - Mat Cammarano
Additional Recording - Elliot Smith, Dan Carroll and Ryan Brennan
Performed by - Matt Shehan, James Shehan, Cobie Mason, Elliot Smith, Ryan Brennan, Leah Grant and Mat Cammarano
Mixed - Andy Lawson
Mastered - William Bowden
Artwork - Shane Beam

Big thanks to the Department of Culture and the Arts for the grant

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